Chapter 1

The internet icon circled, the tap of Kaitlyn Monroe’s fingernails drumming on the wood of the kitchen table, pinky to pointer. Pinky to pointer. She swallowed— her eyes glued to the screen, waiting to deliver the results of her search for reviews of online dating sites. Which one should she choose?

Fresh memories flooded in—her near miss at the altar. The playlist she and her roommate had put together rang out over the small Bluetooth speaker. Kaitlyn’s white satin dress flowed as she walked slowly down the aisle. White satin bows had been attached to the front pews by her best friend Tina. The bouquet of sunflowers, white poppies, and bachelor buttons almost made her forget how nervous she was. The thundering beat of her heart matched her quivering hands, making the flowers in her bouquet shutter.

She’d made the right decision, right? Sure, it had only been a few months since she had met Robbie, but let’s face it. Time was running out. She was already twenty-five and still not married. And everyone who was anyone had their ring by spring.

Kaitlyn looked out at the few friends she had invited. Friends from her nursing cohort. Megan. Tricia. Kelly. Kelly looked exceptionally good—long blonde hair done up with a pearl clip, false eyelashes. Made Kaitlyn a little self-conscious—she wasn’t exactly a trophy bride.

And where were Robbie’s eyes? Not on his bride-to-be, that was for sure. They were glued to Kelly, her hand with perfectly manicured nails covering a hint of a smile.

Earlier, when she had confronted Robbie about flirting with others, her fiancé had told her she didn’t have to worry. He only had eyes for her. Obviously not true. She should have listened to Tina, who had seen the red flags. His white lies, the lack of a job, and how he treated his mom.

Kaitlyn pulled herself together to listen to the pastor.

“Thank you for gathering here today to witness the marriage of Kaitlyn and Robbie.” At the sound of his name, his eyes snapped to Kaitlyn. He shifted from one leg to the other. The pastor beckoned him to stand next to Kaitlyn, their backs facing the guests. Robbie turned his head and snuck another glance at Kelly.

Kaitlyn felt a tear slide down her cheek. And not the happy kind. She thrust her bouquet at Tina, turned, and ran down the aisle and out the door. She slid the cubic zirconia ring off her finger and threw it, where it landed in a clump of thistles. Right where it belonged. The jerk!

This adorable girl is my youngest daughter, Sidney.

She’s the one I based Kaitlyn on and the one who helped me with medical ideas.

Imagine being Kaitlyn Monroe 👩‍⚕️ fresh out of nursing school, bright-eyed ✨,

chasing her dream job and her soul mate 💕,

and then BOOM 💥 she lands at Mercy Hospital 🏥,

where “unexpected patient adventures” 🚨

probably should come with their own hazard pay (or at least a warning label

⚠️: Caution, may cause questioning your entire life calling 😅).

Then there’s Luke McCarthy 👨‍💼 successful, ambitious,

and thinking he’s locked in on purpose 🎯 until surprise!

😲 his boss decides to play moral gymnastics 🤸 with the charity’s reputation.

Now we’ve got secrets 🤫, faith 🙏, love 💗,

and a few emotional grenades 💣 just waiting to explode 🔥.

Honestly, if this were a Netflix show 📺,

I’d be binge-watching until 3 a.m. 🌙 with snacks 🍿 I’d regret in the morning 😬.

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Hi, my name is Kaitlyn. I’m the girl you’ve been waiting for and dreaming about all your life.

Or Hi, you have the dreamiest eyes ever! Oh, could you wait just a minute while I wipe the drool from my mouth?

Or Hi, I’m Kaitlyn. I’m the Ruth to your Boaz.

OMg! Lord, you are going to have to put the words in my mouth like you did for Moses if anything good is going to come out of this.

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It seems you’ll never meet the right guy.

Your eyes drift in subtle glances towards any guy that just might be the one.

Finding no one, you join a dating app.

With questionable results.

After several failed attempts, Kaitlyn Monroe she finds Francisco Hernandez, from Honduras.

Oh, those green eyes, though….

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Oct 17, 1984

I feel an anointing upon my being. I am in the 4th dimension- the dimension of the Spirit. It is VERY REAL! (and it is a physical feeling)

At this time, I have a unquenchable desire to get the Holy Scriptures into me, and feel that I should pour forth my life into my family.

I suppose I am "under the anointing” to die, just as Jesus was.

But what a death it will be! I am not my own anymore. Whatever the Lord wants to do with me I will willingly do- I am a SLAVE for Christ sake.

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So, I guess this wasn’t just a thing of our imagination.

There was really something there.

So many questions…

How do you do the operation? What does it entail?

Shaving the head. Slicing an 8” vertical cut. Removing part of the skull. Finding the tumor and removing it.

How long will he be in the hospital?

A few days. It shouldn’t be long.

And at the age of 30, I didn’t know what other questions to ask.

As it turned out, he was in the hospital 21 days.

They couldn’t find the tumor. (How was that possible seeing they were guided by imagery)?

The surgery left him paralyzed on his right side. (Praise God he was left-handed.)

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What’s your whammy?

And how is God, has God, helped you through?

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“Yet, I must stay in the world to do battle until the Lord calls me home. This is the sacrifice I must make; to stay in the world when I would much rather leave it. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

1985 Warrenton, Oregon

Red and amber lights whir rhythmically, reflecting on the bedroom mirror. I am only aware of the pulse of my heart as it beats rapidly in my ears.

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Does God have you in a situation you question?

Ever feel like you got socked in the gut?

Do you stop and question it simply because you’re in shock and you don’t think it’s what God would do?

That was me!

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